When Enough is Enough

I’ve been here before. An aging cat with kidney disease needs special care and treatment, but at some point will die from the same disease.

Kidney disease is a slow breakdown of the cat’s ability to live a decent life. What is ‘decent’? That depends on what you and the cat are used to.

There’s a few things to remember:

  1. Have they stopped doing the things they love?
  2. Have they stopped cleaning themselves or eating?
  3. Would you want the animal’s life to be like it is right now?
  4. Are you willing to let it get worse? (doing so may mean it gets better)
  5. Will your lack of resources make the animal’s suffering worse?

If you’re still confused, contact me. I read animals and I’ll be happy to let you know what’s going on with your dear friend. paulabowden.com

5 sweet ways to relax

TRY PAUSING :   When you get into the car, before driving off, connect a grounding cord to the earth, say a brief prayer, take a couple of deep breaths – what ever it takes to pause for just a moment.

SCHEDULE EACH DAY : Knowing that what I have scheduled is on the books is really freeing.

PUT DOWN YOUR ELECTRONICS: Get up 15 minutes early or plan 15 minutes in the day to do nothing. Put down the phone, the computer and take a walk, BREATHE!

KEEP YOUR WORD: Making promises and not keeping them is really stressful. However, if you can’t keep the promise, be on time etc, be honest about it and stay calm in the moment. Fussing about it won’t change it.

DO YOUR BEST:  This isn’t the first time you’ve heard this, but it’s a great way to relax. Knowing you’re doing your best in any given moment is a great way to stay relaxed.

I Talk to the Animals

And you can too!

Wouldn’t it be great to know what your best friend is thinking?  I’m expanding my business where I not only read your animal companion but teach you to do this, too.

Sit back for a moment and close your eyes. Ground your body as I’ve shown you before in previous blogs, drop that grounding cord to the center of the earth, then find the center of your head.

From this vantage point you can see your whole world. See an image of your animal companion then see a cartoon bubble above the head. What does s/he have to offer you in ways of communication? It could be verbal, you could hear a word or see a color or vibration? What do you see?

I speak to the animals using my actual voice, showing them pictures and words and giving them psychic tools such as grounding and communication. My girlfriend has an aging cat who gets nervous sometimes. She sees in her mind’s eye – nose and pictures the two of them touching noses. This quiets his mewing every time.

There are so many ways to speak with the animals in our lives, regardless of their form.

Come to class, contact me and lets see what we can discover!

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Wanting

 

 

 

 

I’m here to serve. This requires action

I am here only to be truly helpful.

I am here to represent Him Who sent me.

I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do,

because He Who sent me will direct me.

I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.

I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.

(T-2.V(A).18:2-6)

I’ve recently come across this prayer from “A Course in Miracles” which is an amazing book with incredible ideas.

I write today to remind you that you are unique and can create, and in order to create, action is required.

I tend to spend time waiting for the miracle. Perhaps I am the miracle. Perhaps you are. Perhaps whatever the action is needed, it will be enough.

It is said that everything has already been created, but what action do you need to take to make the world you want, the life you want, the world you want created.

“I love you, I’m sorry, Forgive me, Thank You” says one version of  Hooponopono.

It’s not my fault, but it is my responsibility to create my world so everyone gets a fair break. And action is necessary.

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It’s Been Awhile …How much is enough?

IMG_2187 3What is the price of your soul?

How many times do you need to be told you’re good enough, smart enough, worthy enough compared to the number of times you have to be told you are awful, before you believe it? Why are you willing to believe the negative before the positive?

What do you have to give away before you feel you should get what you want? How much is enough?

I’ve recently had the experience of two different friends not choosing to be my friend any more. Now granted, I am surrounded by loving people. I am cared for, desired and wished well of. One friend walks away because she decided I was selfish and another because she didn’t like who she became when she was around me. Am I willing to believe what they have to say? Yes, but only if I am willing to believe all the good things other friends say about me.

As above, so below. I can only be as good as I can be bad. I can only be as joyful as I can be sorrowful. I can only hate to the degree that I can love. I can only be in my body to the degree that I can be outside of it. If we are everything, then we are all that and a bowl of chips.

So, pay attention. Be willing to believe that you can be selfish, but only if you are willing to believe that you can be selfless. Be willing to believe that you are not worthy or wanted only if you are equally willing to believe that you are both worthy and wanted. Both or all of it can be true. The question is, what will you do with the belief?

Do you allow the belief to stop you in your tracks or propel you up the mountain? Do you allow the belief to open your heart or shut it down forever? Can you love, despite or because of the pain? I believe you can.

So how much are you worth? Are you worth the price another places on you or are you willing to set your own worth, your own price?

I believe you can do the latter. Be mindful and believe that which makes you feel good.

thanksgiving 

  
So, many people post about what they are thankful for on this day. 

I think it’s a good practice to do daily. Much like Valentines’ day is supposed to make us feel gratitude for our loved ones, Thanksgiving is a man-made, manufactured day for giving thanks. But it originally symbolized colonialism in the US.   It was the start of something big and millions lost their  lives. 

So what does this mean?  I love the thanksgiving (and Christmas) season. I appreciate that the country takes a day to fill with gratitude as each individual is able. Of course the holidays are filled with way too much stress for some. 

So I practice Tonglen which hopefully allows for the healing of the world as well as myself. 

I’m sorry, terribly sorry for what happened to Native peoples and what is happening today. What I can do is speak out where I see injustice and be thankful for what I do have. 

So on this day of giving thanks, I do so. I share deep gratitude for my life and hope and pray that from this day foreword I can continue to open myself and the world so that justice can indeed, prevail. 

Ways to Release Grief

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Find grief in your body, your mind, your soul. It’s there, even if it lingers from something as simple from remembering how you felt when you lost a toy, to the loss of your child, mother or partner to death, or something else.

Sit and just feel the heaviness of that grief. Now, let’s start questioning the thoughts.

Now think of something that brings you absolute joy. Is it an accomplishment? The smile radiating from a child? The sunrise, or god as you understand god? The caress of a lover or a quiet moment alone? What brings you joy? What expands you?

For the next step, I want to say out loud, so that everyone can hear me, that I am never saying you shouldn’t feel what you feel. I’m not suggesting you stuff your feelings or feel guilty for feeling them. You have very valid reasons for choosing your emotion, and sometimes they feel like you have no choice but to feel what you feel. It may seem like if you don’t express the emotion you have, you’re not honoring what happened. In no way do I want discussions about choosing how you feel, used to add guilt or shame to your already crowded psyche. You feel what you feel, often unconsciously, and I’m simply offering another suggestion. These concepts are age-old, and I’m simply repeating what I learned, applied, and used to change my life. What I am hoping you understand is that you have a choice, even when you feel like you don’t.

Believe it or not, grief is a choice. I understand that this may sound insane. You’ve lost someone incredibly important to you, you’ve been fired from a job, you have a terrible illness and you feel horrible. The idea that you have to feel a certain way seems overwhelming. The idea that you have to grieve feels like you have no other choice. By questioning the thought, you can start to break through the hard emotion that may no longer be serving you.

Have you ever questioned the need to be in grief? Here’s a meditation:

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Be aware of your body and relax one muscle group that you’re holding tight, be it your jaw, shoulders or toes. Find one more and let it relax, let go, get soft, release. Find your grief. You can do this by feeling the feeling in your body, or find the center of your head and look at your screen. See an image of yourself in your mind’s eye and allow the grief to light up a color, red perhaps or yellow.

Understand that you are amazing, and awe inspiring. Allow your energy to amplify, fill up and expand. Watch what happens to that grief.  Expand more. See yourself as a balloon spreading out, opening up and expanding. As you continue to expand, what happens to the grief?

Do you see how it dissipates? Do you see how it releases and relaxes? Now watch this process and see where you grab back on to it.  Can you release that grief and simply let it fall? If not, why not? Do you see how you’re grabbing on to your grief and holding on? Do you see how it is your thought that you want it or belief that you need it that makes you hold on to your grief? Allow it to release one more time and fill yourself up with a big bubble of joy, above your head.

When you first let it go, what was the feeling or need to pull it back? For instance, you may believe that you are honoring your deceased loved one by feeling the grief. You may hear yourself say things like ‘well, I was raped, shouldn’t I feel grief?’, or ‘isn’t it natural for someone to feel grief after a divorce?

So, yes, we have those feelings. We have thoughts we believe and we hold on to how we feel. But what else is possible? Where are you holding on to your belief in your grief so tightly that you can’t breathe? How are you being served by this grief? Who’s grief is it? Do you need to feel it to take your next breath, step or thought?

Don’t change it, just question it. What are you holding so hostage about yourself that you’d rather be hostage than potent? Where are you being a victim to your circumstances?

As you comb through these questions, you may get actual answers, or you may just find relief in the question. “I have to feel grief, is this true?”

Now let’s go back to that sense of joy you created at the beginning of this blog. Today, as you go through the day, each time you feel the grief, thank the experience that brought this to you. See the experience as a butler with two silver trays extended; one with your experience of grief and the other with you experience of joy. As you feel the grief rise,  see the choice of both trays, and chose the joy. Again, thank the experience that brought you the grief, and chose to vibrate in joy.

As you do this, you’ll understand the ‘why’ you’ve manufactured to choose the grief. You’ll get more in touch and you may continue to choose the grief. The beauty of this is that over time, or very quickly, you will see that you are actually picking up the grief by choice, and you may decide to choose differently.

Please let me know how this meditation works for you. I’d like to hear comments as to how you’re feeling. Thanks

Peace, Paula

Fundamental Beliefs

We have Untrue Fundamental Beliefs about ourselves and the world. Just because we have this/these beliefs, doesn’t mean they’re true. Trouble is, the beliefs feel so incredibly true, it feels real. 

Here are my fundamental beliefs. 1) my presence causes harm. 2) people don’t really want to be around me. {they kinda go together, as you can imagine}. 

So I know it’s not true, but as Ms Andrews starts to tell us in The Sound of Music ‘somewhere in my youth and childhood…’, I complete it  with ‘I must have done something bad’. 

My life is good, and as I count down my last 2+ weeks of corporate job to head into the adventure of self-employment, my excitement mounts, but in the back of my mind, there is this nagging voice. I react to a small hint of that which feels like rejection. It’s the only place I truly feel weak. AND it goes against what I know to be true. – 

    1. My thoughts create my reality, or at least my experience of it. 
    2. There’s nothing wrong with me     
    3. I’m in charge or at least, co-creator. 
    4. I’m not alone. 

    The ‘I’m not alone’ part, we’ve discussed before. There’s another energy, entity or being that is inputting itself, or being called to interfere or act on your behalf. I came across such an entity recently I found in a woman I was attracted to. 

    I’m shy around her, which is incredibly uncharacteristic of me. I’m nearly embarrassed. I went in to meditation to read the situation for myself, and saw a warrior being protecting her space. Fascinating and something I’ll need to work with in order to be in her space. 

    Yes, we are all one in a very broad way, but from my perspective, there are beings without physical bodies who interact with us, just as beings with physical bodies do. 

    I’d love to invite you to work with me on you getting to know you. 

    Peace, Paula 

    I AM Unworthy, I’m not Deserving.. Liar

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    First of all, I AM – this is true. Unworthy? Not Deserving? This is impossible. It cannot be. Ever. At any time. There is no time you cannot be unworthy or not deserving.

    The idea of worthiness or deserving also don’t exist, but most of us wander around the planet with a belief we are not worthy. We are taught this from ego based religions and society as though we have the ability to be unworthy. We are taught that we aren’t worthy enough for *God*’. This is a lie.

    We are / We be – that’s the truth. There is no such thing as lack of worthiness because there is no such thing as worthy. We invariably have worth because we exist.

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    Let’s go back to your feet, hands, or the furthest body part away from your heart. Just pay attention to that part of  your body. Deep breath. Is that body part, unworthy? Think of your brain, of your mind. Is this unworthy? Then what exactly is unworthy? Look around. Outside of your body, the only thing left is you, the spirit or consciousness. How can consciousness be unworthy? It’s not possible. Sit for a moment and simply allow yourself to be, without judgment, for one second. That is the beginning of freedom.

    So now you know. You don’t have a price, you don’t have an attached value, but don’t confuse that with the idea that you are unworthy or without value.. You ARE. Worth doesn’t play a part in this at all. We have innate value because we exist. We are invaluable. We are here, on this Earth, on this spaceship, on this heaven, if you will. The expression of the divine. We Be.. That’s all.

    Pay attention to and question your thoughts.

    Contact me if you would like help.

    Peace, Paula